Expressive group with staff

 6-8 April 2011
i was fully in-charge for staff program
to give briefing about what is SOP of work and
conduct teamwork- program in teraputic approach

TQ for my superior, PJ who is supportive
she manage to break thought the challenge from management side, and we did.

expressive work/creative work must be authentic and come from inside/outside.

the activity i do with staff is recognition of self with four possibilities
(1) recognize our Strenght
(2) recognize fear
(3) recognize angry
(4) hope






then, moved to game, energizer activity and dance, movement
i try to integrate what i learn from CCS with Pris, to give meaning of NAME
how the NAME bring us here today!

Finally, is the big group drawing
where each of them draw together

Learning and growing with the organization, sometime is essential
i learn and grow together in this journey as well...

Teen Camp on 3.12.2010

this is not first time i am handling juvenile delinquent camp
this is 3rd year i am working in this place, and it's a anual program
The camp was held at Merbok, Kedah

this round, we have 26 participants out of 40
there is 16 indian, 10 chinese who involved with this camp

as usual, we start the activities with ice-breaking
each of the participant will introduce their name, age, how they wish to call
then, we start to do "action", name follow by an action
after that, we try to move and play some warming up activity

come to the game of "TRUST"
the game i name it "passenger and driver"
two was paired up in this game, one is driver, one will be passanger
the person choose to be passenger will be standing in front of the driver
what the passenger need to do is : close their eyes, and followed the direction from the driver
grounds rules were set, where by, the driver need to carry passenger carefully
do not "crash" to others people when moved around

yet, when the game start, they do it well...
but after that, the teenager start to create problems
they can't follow the rule, and start to hit people
i stop it, and asked them to switch, again, remind the rule
when the 2nd time playing this activity

there is a group of teenagers come and bump on me
i try to step back, go out, but 2nd hit is coming, bump in front of me
i was shock, and the group who bump me, still laughing, like really fun
my emotion was UP. i am so angry~
but, i try to control myself, i shout out loud, and say STOP to play!
i ASKED: WHAT ARE YOU ALL DOING?
WHAT HAPPENED JUST NOW?  YOU GUYS CAME AND BUMP ME. AND YET THIS IS A PLAY, AND RULE WERE SET! I WANT EXPLANATION!!
then, all quiet...no body talking, all in silent...
i looked around, the group of teenagers who purposely bump me still laughing

then,
my emotion start feel angry, i felt like i am being bullied
i felt like they purposely bump me, no respect me
i do not how did i turn
suddenly, i try to convert my angry to another form of expression
i role play that i was hit by the car... and i am dying
the person - the group of people who bump me running away
and i am dying, i am bleeding
i cried for help, ask the witnesses to block the person who bump me
asked somebody who standing aside to call ambulance

yet, no one help
finally the Ramakrishna kids come out and help me
when i de-roll myself
i asked all the participants to think,
WHY they act it so? let's think about the scenario if this is happens to any one of their love one, will they still stay ignorant?  will they still stood there but "KBC", while doing nothing?


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I AM STILL SO SO SO ANGRY
PROFESIONALLY, I COMPLETE MY TASK
but, personally, i felt like i am being threatened, i feel like i am being assault
i could get injured by letting the group of teenagers bump on me
and it's recall me back of the experience where i were  being sexual harassment
i experience the feeling of helplessness, anxiety, angry
i felt like why i can't protect myself???

personally, i really angry. so so so so  angry
i still thinking of want to find out the person who bump me
and just gave him to hit on face~
but, life have to moved on~~
right?

i need to deal with my own inner angry
i need to look deep, why i am so MIND about the teenagers did to me
it is past, it is over, yet my body remember the uncomfortable feeling, the pain
the hurt

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some one told me. is my team members who follow in this camp
they told me: x10, i thought u are the one designed this, wow, you are so profesional ya~
some voices said:
they maybe want to test your limit and power
maybe you look so adorable, and you have a long hair, so, they intentionally want to disturb you
i think you look so arrogant, not friendly enough. that's WHY it's happens

i am reflecting it... i asked myself
what if, one day, when i am handling program
some of the teenagers （this juvenile delinquent) client  really bring something to harm facilitator? not necesarry me, but any body else? what can this organization do?? to protect facilitator/ counsellor in that time???

i am thinking too much...they say
maybe~

but, i am feeling unable to forget the bump, the hurt,
it's 4th day passed.........   what make me not moved out from this incident yet?
i wonder.........
LIFE MOVES ＯＮ～　
right?.... letting go..letting go, i tell myself....
it's a new day~


 

Secret Box

Thanks Priscilla and Alex,

i learn this , and i am using it now

in a family retreat program with juvenile delinquent teenagers and their parents

preparing the box, material, and asked the participants to choose a box

then, they will take some time to decorate the box, cut and paste to make the box lively

then, i asked the participant stay together with the box they create

try to look deep into the box

what the main message they want to tell to this special person

( i already told participant, this special person : for parents - to this special child, for child- writ to parents)

i asked them to think pf this specific person

imagine ~ what they want to say, what they want them to aware

then, i asked them to try to convey in drawing form, if unable to write

if they fell writing, just write a message for the special person

things they want the children/parents to know about~

take their time, provided time is 1 hours

they still can continue it from time to time~

when they finished doing it....

i kept it. till the last day, before they go back~

i asked to reveal the secret box

the father/mother will sit back to back

mother/father will take their box give to their child

The child will gave his box to parents

then, child will start read what is inside the box

parents just listen

tn other hand, children will listen to what he had written by parents

no comment, no interruption, but only listening to what had writen by each other 

then...

i asked them to turn to face-to-face

father/mother and children share about their feeling

sharing ONLY, clear instruction was  given

how they feel, when they read it, and listen for the message by both party

after this, i asked the parents to hold hand with children

they need to hold hand, and look into each others eyes

hold stronger the hand, and try to feel the hand of the father/mother/ child

well, 

after this, i give instruction ask the children to touch the face of parent

asked the parent to touch the face, the forehead

in the touching, i asked them to feel, how is parents now?

are they still strong? getting older？ any wrinkle at eye side?

then, i asked the children to convey thankfulness to parent

SAY : 

TERIMA KASIH - AYAH DAN IBU

SAY : 

MINTA MAAF, MAAFKAN SAYA AYAH DAN IBU

SAY : 

SAYA SAYANG KAMU, PAPA/MAMA

MOTHER/FATHER SAY: 

I LOVE YOU TOO~ 

HUG ` HUG```` each other

 then, i continue with a song, " KU ada MU"

asked them to hug for at least this SONG~

to stay close with the hug. feeling the heart-beat of each

silently ~

THE SECRET BOX TOUCH EVERYONE

ONLY LOVE DOES MATTERS

~ BRING LOVE TO HOME ~

BY: X10